Deep Breath and Prayer

I sent Tami an email asking if Eating Disorders were an addiction or a disease. There is a legit point, I have never gotten a direct answer as to exactly what it is, and we all know me, I seem to do a little better if I can understand what it is I am dealing with, and I just don't seem to understand this. I did get a reply, it is both. My point with this actually started a few days ago. It's something I have thought about off and on over the years, and so as Chris would say, it has came around again on the spiral. Ok, sidebar, I am going to admit it - because I am a big girl - the email had a hidden passive aggressive agenda behind it too. After last Thursday, I wondered if 1. would she answer me, and 2. would she tell me this was the ED talking. You see I have some "fears" now after that last session. I will put that in "" because that may or may not be the right word to use, and it is what I am going with. I guess I am afraid of sharing anything in reg...

I almost wrote and email to Tami about this as my mind thought more and more about it. Figured it was her session that got the whole thought of it all going, so that is who I would address it to. Then thought about emailing Chris. Then I didn't. Figured I would just write it out. I guess I shy away because I have a pretty good feeling that I know the therapeutic feedback on this one would be something like, "whichever works for you." Tami talked about finding my voice under the ED voice. I think I talked about this in my last post. Many times before there has been talk similar to this, usually she would say something like there is this person in you who needs to have a voice, or similar. Basically - the ED voice and the non-ED voice which is supposed to be mine I am going with. For some reason, after Thursday, I started wondering, how does this work? All these damn voices, demons, screaming, darkness, whatever we are going to name them (we will go with voice) How does...