Deep Breath and Prayer

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There are times when you pink elephant is far worse than the "think of a pink elephant" scenario. It is not cute, it is not nice, it is not pleasing to be around, it is just right down scary. I do believe my pink elephant(s) lately look something like this one above. Yup, maybe even scarier. Therefore I have come to the conclusion that there are times where you need more than one blue donkey, or that you go find your "secret weapon" blue donkey - the one that can pull you out of the depths of hell, even if it is just for a few moments. And maybe it is not so much the donkey as what things are attributed to that donkey. I realized today that I needed one of those donkeys. This past week has been long and difficult. Yes, I have made it and, as I have been told, I am supposed to celebrate that - still working on that piece. As well, it is not over yet, so no early celebrating anyways. I chose my super donkey, I cleaned off the piano, sat down, and played a while. Now, ...

Well, here I am again. I should buy stock in this place. Back to throwing up again, which has been going on for a week or so, yet now I am on non-solid food. Called my GI doc yesterday and again this morning and they say the earliest they will get back to me is later today. So, Tami said to get my tail over here. I am not winning too many battles this week...emotionally or physically. Was back in bed by 730 again last night. Woke up around 930 in a panic attack. Actually texted 35 and asked her if she would text chat with me for a bit until I could get settled down. She did. Got back to sleep after that yet woke up every couple hours through the night in the same way. Am on my own now until Tuesday and Tami made me promise I would not cancel my appointment with Chris. I afraid she will be mad at me because of everything that has happened this week. Now, I know from experience that she does not get mad, disappointed, frustrated, etc at me....yet, that does not mean there will not be a f...

Ann and I making the goodie bags for the primary children.

Much better fish... And it ate my hook too.

Little, and the first official catch of the season!

Finally got my pantry/food storage fixed up. Now I have a place to really put some extra food items. Thanks Chris, it turned out just like I hoped.