Deep Breath and Prayer

Follow up Thyroid blood draw Lora swings by the house, "I think this belongs to you" Uncle Matty had a T-bone steak, Tessa had the T-bone!

Friday was a busy day  Baby Beastie was a work for a visit! My bracelet arrived...well, kind of. Hopefully it is in the box tomorrow! A very necessary trip to the store. The infamous "mom, I ate all mine, will you share yours?"

Missed this little critter while I was gone and she was pretty darn happy to see me and come home. Of course, she got to go to burger king and get a ham, egg, and cheese croissant. Yah, she is spoiled.

Today was head home day. See you again soon Vegas!   And last night it was root beer float fun! 

Hey my dear family. Well, it is coming to a close and I am getting more and more petrified about coming home. As last time, I have gained a lot by being out here and I am so afraid of not being able to maintain that when I get home. I have a lot of accountability partners out here and for the most part I am on my own back home. As well, going back home means facing everything I left and ran from. I will survive and it scares me. I am writing early tonight as the only thing left is to go out for a bit with a former missionary to meet his fiancée and then root beer float party tonight for the “last night together”. Oh, yah, and pack my stuff back up. Today’s adventure started with more duck feeding. I tell ya, those things are a trip. Why can’t we have more ducks and less Canadian Geese. I could have sat there all day watching them. We headed over to the strip to the MGM Grand to find the Jabbawockees (dance troupe) store. Lora’s derby name is “jammawockee” and so I told her I would pick...

Hey family. I was not going to write an email tonight as the unplanned getting sick left me in a “just want to go to sleep” place. I did come up and lie down for a bit and Shauna came in and talked to me to see if I was ok. She wanted to know what was going on in my head. Told her it is just kind of a domino effect, the physical “shock” kicks in the emotional/mental crap and I have learned to just ride it out because when I try to fight it, it just gets worse. She just crawled up with me for a few and then it was time for “family night” and she told me to just come down when I was ready, no worries. I laid there for a few and really just wanted to not get up for the rest of the night and I told myself to just get up, go down there, and enjoy things. I was not going to get “called out” or invalidated or put on the spot, etc. So, I made my way down, even though I was still a bit shaky and my mind was still kind of loud. Shauna let me crawl up next to her and she put her arm around me and...

Good evening. Not too much to report from today other than I honored my body and rested. Could have gone non stop today too, yet I spoke up and said that I needed to rest. Shauna said she was very proud of me for listening to my needs and acting on them AND not beating myself up or feeling guilty for it. I am doing well and tomorrow our adventures continue. I believe a women's basketball game down at UNLV is on the agenda. We got free tickets so hey, that is cool. Made it to part of church today and the lesson talked about how wherever we are, that is where we are and it is ok. If we are looking to progress in our lives (no matter what that is in) we do not have to get to some point before we begin...wherever we are, we can start from there. It reminded me of all of you saying at one time or another that you will meet me where I am and we will work forward from there. I do not have to be at a certain level, where i am is ok and I am not judged for it. I keep laughing as I really mi...